Extinguished

Misty eyes still glinting
Languished, her aroma dying,
Astouned,I stare into
Her ethereal nothingness
As solitude engulfs me
Into a dark embrace

A venomous soul rejoices
A serpentine smiles
As if rejoicing at my loss
A nothingness sterilised awaits
I must go
But something still remains.

On the faceth of darkness
Lullabies that awakens me
I see blood spurting out
But no pain arrives.
An apocalypse awaits
Yet awaits a reunion,
But for me, but for her.

A hope still burning
"We will meet again"
Extinguished but a flame
With a final whispher
"I dont love you"

Confused

I wait for thee , mistress
My lip upturned
Come O, enchantress!
I call upon thee

Every passing moment
Feels like an aeon
The ardent caress of misty vapours
Hurts me as stab wounds

Art thou an illusion??
Or a truth so unfair.
I am lost into non-being
Dreams of thyself

Answer me ye,
Answer me.
Art thou a fragment of my dream
Am I yet asleep?

You speak mistress
But now words are heard
A music that flows in me
Leaving me astouned, numb.

Thou art the music
Thou art divine
Thou art a promise so unyielding
I beg you O!
Tell me ,

Who art thou ?
What thou wilt?

Redemption

Standing atop the hill
Looking across the mire
I spot a solitary dughole
Lying in all green

There lies my solitary grave
Its mouth agape . Hungry.
A mourning roiling in clouds
Thunders reminiscing the dirge for me

Rain drops caress my body
Falling, like tears of aeonic mourners
But the advent has to end somewhere
As does the song of my lament

I must die
A loss is to be redeemed

Forgotten one

Emerging from a certain guilt
I looked around to a world so known
But I seemed too unknown to everything

I was long lost
An affinity was broken

And standing there
In the dark street
I was still the forgotten one.

Lonely

I lie
Caressing my arid eyes
Forgetting everything

I cannot see
I cannot sleep
I cannot feel
I cannot love

Since I reside
In this isolated shack
Trapped in infinity

Imagination

A nothingness sterilised
A vision paralysed
I lie in darkness
Like an unborn child
Playing with imagination

Unto the twilight claims me
I wait into the darkness
I wait for redemption
Not knowing
That I am lost
Into a dream
A spawn of imagination

Prisoner

Emerging from nothingness, I opened my eyes to find myself yet alive. Motionless , Through the windowpane, sky stared at me and I lied staring back at sky. A redness glided in clouds, sun was not to be seen yet,twilight was claiming me. Another day was beckoning me but I dreaded to follow. I knew a night awaited after it, I knew it soon would be engulfed in a darkness and the night would overcome every moment of happiness. My relief would be clouded in my screams and agony of my solidified blood being scratched to flow,crawl,tickle and burn mercilessly.

The film of last night's tortures stroke my mind like a stab wound.It was then when I realised that I lied in the pool of my own blood.I could see my reflection , the very red , in the red surface. I could feel my body scathed,I could feel my wounds burning,I could feel the pain.

Though pain came, though agony was brought by night , to be frank,I had started enjoying it.
It had become an indispensible part of me.I had made a habit of being wounded everynight,by those who call themselves "civilised"

I got to search for some place to wash down the remains of my beloved blood,to caress my wounds,to kiss them.The blood that flew through my body once in a strong affinity, resided no more.A warmth it provided in me , but now a numbness was crawling. A grim coldness had embraced me.I could not feel my heart beat.But I knew I were not dead , I was yet alive.

Sullen at my confirmed survival I got to my feet to roam around in the castle.The place was gloomy as ever , painted in the blood of who knew how many prisoners, innocent or guilties.I had searched for years for a tiniest part of life other than me,I had searched for a company here,
a being like me , subjected to an agonised death. But nobody , all except for me resided in this tower,resided trapped between these walls bloodstained............


Long , long ago was it. I had killed her. She was my wife.I could see the scenes of that dreadfull night just like the fossils of a nightmare which exist even though the nightmre flows out as soon as we open our eyes.

She was ill. It was another of those time periods which grabbed her in the arms of pain.She told me she could bear it no more. She asked me to kill her, end it all. I could not see her like that,I loved her. And,hence, I killed her. With my sword I slayed her. And ..................I was tracked,I was caught,I was imprisoned. None except me knew that she welcomed death. Since very then I was punished for freeing a soul from a rotten ,aching body.

.....................Walking across the tower I realised that I could not trust my legs for long. And again I lied down over the numb floor.I lied ther with my eyes open but staring at nothing, just dreaming. Thinking of my past I broke into sleep again , dreaming strange dreams I slept. And when I opened my eyes again, a bleeding reality stood and faced me. Night had fallen and I lied in the very chamber of punishment , surrounded by undesirables.

So.......it was about to begin . I could see the tools of my destruction.And, thnking of death I closed my eyes again.Wishing ..........I need not see another day.

Sleep Again?

Drapped in pallor
Bathed in dew
A breeze solemn
Whisphers anew
Dont go to sleep again

A night shrivelled,
Forlorn, astray
Alucid reality
Aromatizing dismay
Dont go to sleep again

A drop of mourning
Gathering in eye
Spring is yet far
I must die
I must go to sleep

Hollow Shell

Shadows lickering my body
Darkness caressing my face
Claiming my soul with a certain guilt
Solitude blooming a lonesome grace

End is arriving ,
Farewell is done.

Now I exist,
But soon will be.....
An empty , hollow shell

Sleep

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going
Back and forth across the doorsill
Where two worldstouch.
The round door is open.
Don't go back to sleep.

Slain

An arrogative numbness
Aromatizing infinity
Paralysing my soul
Summoning an atrocity

Interwined a reality
A being of deceit
An inundated cruelty
Surviving a defeat

Perforated my body in distaste
Scathed all over in a cruel haste
Sharpening the swords for a clash
Blood srouting over every slash

Redefining a redemption
Respraying a resumption
Resurecting a yet died body
I have no blood left
Its just pain

Asleep

A nothingness engulfing
A monstrosity struggling
A razor caressing
A breeze perforating

Drapped in the blankness of mist
A dream is summoning me
Shrouded in cruple
My being scuffling me

Through the reveries
Scrambling,a light flashes
My being is lost
In my own ashes

Blows an air lucid
Caressing my body undrapped
Shines a sun in the sky
Am I yet asleep??

Velvet Desire

Snow is falling
Across the mire
The valley is clothed
In a velvet desire

Wind blames me
Solitude claims me

Mist is recovering
Vision is blocked

Like a spirit of never ending beauty
You come
Bathing the place, in your heavenly grace

Vapours of mist engulf everything
And in this nothingness
Nothing is forbidden

Cold . Numb .
Astonished . Mortified.
I get up
Blinking blankly
Looking at myself , in your eyes.

Pain burning away
I shrink within myself

Cloaked in the mantle of dismay
I close my eyes
Surrendering.

Away from the numbness
Beforemy end claims me
I beg for a final touch
Embrace me
In the warmth of your scarlet lips

Ultimate Collapse

Walking through the boulevard of melancholy
I stare into infinity

Clouds gather in sky
There are no stars
Mourning roil within
There is no other chance

Sublimating the sufferings
Describing the pain eternal
A clamour echoes
Breaking a synapse , Non-verbal

Thunder booms,Lightening strikes
Bathed in lucidity,I continue the hike
Caressing my eyes and face
Droplets blooming aeonic grace

Wind blows,rain falls
Massaging my body , blowing my hair
Shivering .I close my eyes
Thinking. Into nothingness I stare

Preparing for an ultimate collapse
I lie , I weep
Another dark day beckons me
I must heed , I sleep

Welcome

I wake up
From the nothingness
Wounded.Bleeding.
Drenched in redness.

Paranoid I lie
Judgement is no more mine.
Insanity negotiated.
Destiny emaciated.

Grasping .Moaning.
Thoughts intwined.
A mist roiling within me
Overcoming my mind.

Blank.I get up
Kissing,Snogging my wounds
A crypt of lute awaits for hibernation
Enjoying the pain I bound.

Once I was ,
Now nothing remains
Beside shreds of insanity
And,
Insanity is welcome.

Nightmare

In the tranciency of dreams
Where we glide into nothingness
There lie eternities
In the shreds of numbness

There exist another me
In the mire of lonliness
The divine paraselene
Ignite in sulkiness

Transcending into
A world so unknown
Thoughts roiling within .
I moan.

I see your face
Thus waking me up
Imbrued in sweat
Sullen in restlessness

And in this restlessness
I will sleep in your arms
Forever

Forever

walking in affinity
I drag on my corpse
To the grave
where lies my heart
The grave of my love

Open it lies
Waiting for me
Sucking the fossils of my soul
But I have lost my being
Into its depths

Leaves on the trees
Humm the song of my lament
As if lulling my soul to death

I see her face
Shimmering.Glinting.
Cloaked in ethereal light of moon
Her lips , the shade of darkest red
But cold. Numb.

I climb down
Kissing her empty eyes
Ready to be burried

Entrapped in the cyst of emotions
My lips embrace hers
Forever

Final Inspection

The Soldier stood and faced God
Which must always come to pass
He hoped his shoes were shining
Just as bright as his brass.
"Step forward you Soldier,
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To My Church have you been true?"
The Solider squared his shoulders and said
"No, Lord, I guess I ain't
Because those of us who carry guns
Can't always be a saint
.I've had to work on Sundays
And at times my talk was tough,
And sometimes I've been violent,
Because the world is awfully rough.
But, I never took a penny
That wasn't mine to keep.
Though I worked a lot of overtime
When the bills got just to steep,
And I never passed a cry for help
Though at times I shook with fear,
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I've wept unmanly tears.
I know I don't deserve a place
Among the people here.
They never wanted me around
Except to calm their fears.
If you've a place for me here,
Lord, It needn't be so grand
,I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't, I'll understand."
There was silence all around the throne
Where the saints had often trod
As the Soldier waited quietly,
For the judgement of his God.
"Step forward now, you Soldier,
You've borne your burden well.
Walk peacefully on Heaven's streets,
You've done your time in Hell."

A Soldier's Prayer

Look God: I have never spoken to You,
But now I want to say, "How do You do."
You see God, they told me You did not exist;
And, like a fool, I believed all of this
Last night from a shell hole I saw Your sky;
I figured right then they had told me a lie.

Had I taken the time to see the things You made,

I would know they weren't calling a spade a spade.

I wonder, God, if You would shake my hand;

Somehow, I feel that You will understand.

Strange, I had to come to this hellish place

Before I had time to see Your face

Well, I guess there isn't much more to say,

But I am sure glad, God, I met You today.

I guess the zero hour will soon be here,

But I am not afraid since I know You are near.

The signal - well, God, I will have to go;

I love you lots, this I want you to know.

Looks like this will be a horrible fight;

Who knows, I may come to your house tonight.

Though I wasn't friendly with you before,

I wonder, God, if you would wait at the door.

Look, I am crying, me shedding tears!

I wish I had known you these many years.

Well, I will have to go now, God. Goodbye-

Strange, since I met you, I am not afraid to die.

Guys.........Today I was clearing off my shelf

And I found this

I wrote it about 2 or 3 years back

I think I'll get some more

Backstreet Punk

When I moved in the darker side of my life,
I learned how to servive,
I learned how to force smile,
I learned how to stop crying,
I learned to generate reasons to live,
I learned to make others happy,

And now I know what I am,
my potentials,
and which sand is going to be in my hands,
I know how to grant my wishes..

And now some blood is waiting outside my heart to be pumped,
I want to blink my eyes,
I want to see everyone happy,

So many things,
So many assets,
So many words,
So many thoughts,

but no time to kick start this reality,
on faceth of darkness,
M here to see how things change
n how we let them change....!!

Thats why I feel on the background there lies
a deep dark human being within me......!!
that suggests me for good
,and its no'ne the less.....


THe BAck StrEEt PuNk Inside me.....!!

The Mirror of Disguise

I am
The mirror of disguise
The mirror of desire
The mirror scratched all over
Covered in steamy mist of lies
yet I shine

I show you what
You already know
I show you what
You've already planned
I show you
Your dreams

But never......
Am I constant ever??


My pleasure
To misguide,to mislead
To show
Whats you pleasure to see

How sheepish
How foolish you look
Dont even bewail
Simply believe
On you sail

Why never satisfied thou look
Why never is aware thine being

Dont you know
That lies are always opposed by eternal truth

And truth is what
Lies deep inside me

You have lost your being
Into my heart
Your heart lies close to mine



Look into me; I am here
Are you not?

They Dont Wear Tricoloured Hearts In Heaven

I lost my brother
To a foreign land
I was too young
To even understand

There was a knock
At the front door
Then momma wasnt
Smilling anymore

The man who stood there
was a marine
The first one
I've ever seen

Momma asked me
To go out and play
As preacher came
And they started to pray

Tears ran down momma's eyes
I heard her say "Why lord , why?"

Dad stood there totally mindless
All he said:
We've lost another of INDIA's finest

Marine handed over
A green velvet case
Which had Tricoloured ribbons
Attached to golden hearts with Gandhi's face

I ran up to momma
Asked if it were mine
And she replied
Its your brothers sunshine

I sprang up again:
Momma , can we send this to aman
She simply replied :
They dont wear Tricoloured hearts in Heaven

destiny

[SOUL]
I am walkin all along
The mist , I am
The veil of a mystery
That Lies in front of me
I'll be lost into nothingness of its
I am not into the being
I am a shattered fragment of Time
I have to travel a lot
Into the non being
to grasp a form
To grasp a body


[soul]
bUT hold.........!!
Do I really deserve
To be heading for heaven
to really forbid
The sufferings
and shoo the pain
[ME]
Fall ................Great into the past
See , see wat you've done oh soul
FoR MA LIFE FoR MA BEING
Cried , hung out for the other side
Shed those unworldly tears
[Soul]
I was bound
I was ordered by heavenly father
Who doesnt exist

[me]
Go then..your destiny is waiting
Cross away the veil with no fear
Now that you are
where your destiny lies
Atlast..........In hands of GOD

BE ME

God touched a drop of water
and it became blood
Blood ran through the heart
And human beings coughed
and knew that its our time to feel GOD
Which only few pious people can guide to

BE ONE OF THEM


Let Your motive be
to follow this path:
look for the master,
follow the master,
walk with the master,
see through the master,
become the master!!!!!!!


Then rule this cruel world....!!!!!

MY LOVE

My love, I have tried with all my being
to grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy;
I know now why Shakespeare could not
compare his love to a summer’s day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty
of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision
God had placed in forging you.
Each facet of your being
whether it physical or spiritual
is an ensnarement
from which there is no release.
But I do not wish release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.
Our hearts, always as one.